Im so darn confusing [chapter 2]

1 MONTH HAD PASEED AND I HAVENT POSTED ANYTHING.

seriously, Im really confusing, lets put it this way, I had a ERROR in typing the last one, I think? its.. WAIT. :)) okay okay. lets put it this way, I wont LOVE someone not LIKE, so its okay to Like, well, liking, um, not getting so obsessed, :)) OBSESSED, haha, what the heck, well.

How am I? I am not good, I am currently sick and disliking it. I am a very weak person, weak enough to disguise as a dying person. I dont look pale and it wont be obvious since I walk so slow, well, I think thats a sort of, given clue.

PEEP. Hey thirdy floor person, How are you?

PEEP PEEP PEEP PEEP.

Did I mention PEEP? I did? aw, too bad, PEEP PEEP PEEP.

Although currently sick and not ready to go back to summer, ugh, :)) i dont know, im not in the mood to go back to summer---its so fast and everything, I used to remember getting lost during my first day in seton, who wouldnt forget, I was turning my head everywhere, searching for familiar faces, but all I see is unfamilliar ones, geez.

Would it kill me to say that I am necessary to take back any more sense to life that once was not complicated? and I wouldnt have to take back anything what I said with my abnormal behavior.

Bear with me, its so annoying. I know, I feel it now.

In Jacob Black's words: "Life sucks and then you die, Yeah---I should be so lucky"
Result, a more sense.

It really breaks me to say that it couldnt be so ..influential rather,

my next post will take long,

summer and sophomore,

goodbye freshmen Hamadryads, I will miss you.

Hello Sophomore..uh.. Syke? wonder what you'll be doing to me.

Thank you Mor, Thank you Times,

And Gabby, um, if it wasnt for you i wouldnt be in seton right now.
[convincing me actually]
and ..

that is for you to find out.

I'll miss you ***. :))
[not that it matters :))]

new year, new life. [chapter 1]

MAYBE I JUST NEEDED TO DO WHAT I HAD TO DO,
start over again, Its only now when I realized I needed to do things without the need of someone.
That love can wait and I have more responsibilities to take care of. Starting today, I swore to myself that I wouldnt like any guy until this school year is over. I just had to be right and I wouldnt feel stupid like before that I never knew that I was. It was time that maybe I wasnt good enough to handle things with love. And somehow, I managed to do it. If I was telling myself to delete all of the most obvious things and to continue on my missed requirements then Im a sure that someday love will have to come and just not make right now a better time. I dont need anyone right now to just feel happy for, Ive got alot of things to make me happy not just that. Im a sure fella, and everybody knows when I say "i dont like someone anymore" is just a phrase, but now Im really meaning it. I'll admit I sometimes get over the top and make it obvious, and some guys well, lets say they are like turtles. Thats why I need to get rid of that bad deed before I start liking someone again. I call it a quits because there wasnt really anything for me to have happen because I already started it and have thought I have no way to end it, unless I start to unlike him. So I did and its all good.


the new chapter. the new year and my new life, I think someone made me realize the importance of what Im living for. Thanks. I appreciate it. :D

well, more chapters to construct in the more further days of "dial up internet" . :)

imlovingthis. :]